It has been weeks. No, I take that back, it has been a couple of months since I have written on my blog. I have been “stalled.” By life? By my circumstance? I don’t really know. Tonight I am sitting at my key board, and after many thoughts have been swirling around in my head I thought perhaps it was time to write again. This time I want to invite you, my readers, whoever you may be, to get to know me….the edythewhalen.
So…grab a cup of tea, or coffee, or a glass of wine, depending on the time of day, and join me if you wish.
I am a woman. I have seen much and have been through much. I am 55 years old. I never completed college which kicks me in the ass every day. I love to garden and can my produce. I am an animal lover. I am a rider of horses. I work with my husband in our equine practice. I am a mother of four amazing children. I work in the Vermont Court system as a Guardian ad Litem. I taught school for several years, while taking courses, toward getting my degree, being “Grand fathered” in. As is usual life got in the way…. I got a divorce.
My children are my everything. In my early youth and marriage I focused on raising them. I am very very proud of who they are, today.
After my divorce I spiraled for a time. I stopped teaching school and taught riding lessons and went to work for an equine veterinarian, who by my surprise and unwilling heart would become my husband. I believe to this day both David and I are still in shock to some degree with the turn of events.
After my marriage with David and beginning to feel safe for the first time in my life I began to suffer from depression and flash backs from a horrific past I had buried deep and long ago.
I began to work with a wonderful doctor and she helped me more than I can describe.
And then I began to write.
Wounds, and hurt, and anguish poured out of me.
Poison from my past.
So here I am.
The whole package.
I have been told I love too much, I feel too much, I hurt too much.
To that I respond….”yes I do. This is who I am.”
You see….I have no agenda.
What you see is what you get.
And yet…..I see much, I feel much, and I have so much to say.
Perhaps it is all for naught. And that is ok
I will continue to see much, feel much, hurt much.
And I will work for a better tomorrow.
For myself, for my children, and for the family’s I serve.
I’m so glad you could join me.
I hope you got to know me a bit better.
Feel free to drop me a line and let me know what you are up to.